You know shit's bad when you consider getting back together with your ex. I know it is stupid and won't even get me what I want (young adult book soppy kind of love basically, which does not exist in real life). I just feel so lonely tonight for no apparent reason. Or maybe it's just this new weird PMS. Kicking in just when I really started to believe I don't have it. Why.so many words all the time? I feel exhausted talking, trying to forward my meaning. Why can't I phrase anything? There are too many possibilities to misunderstand me. And I can't seem to overcome them. I just want to give up, it's too much for me.